Had this realisation that i am actually falling behind my frens, by not moving forward... It's not comparing how good are they doing all that. It's only that as the phrase goes "If u are not moving forward, u are falling behind"... I din really start go for classes to do the stuff i wan (whereas they did), din really go and find out on what's available out there(whereas they did again). All of this, i blamed on financial problems, time and etc. Went back to the habit of blaming other things, instead of finding the solution. Guess i better buck up, or else risk being forever standing on the same spot. Things aint meant easy to begin with, so might as well put in extra effort in it. It's time that i started living, instead of passing my time aimlessly.