Been feeling kinda jaded of living of late. Maybe i'm kinda tired of the same old routine for work, or maybe it's just because my contract ending soon, or even maybe for the simple reason that, my pay is late. I can't imagine, living my life like the way it is, for long term. Where just a simple delay in my pay, will cause me so much
undue stress on myself. Day after day, looking at the bills that came, but unable to get it paid. Long term wise, really gets to me. Imagine working, working and working, just to get the bills paid. What's there in life to look forward to?
It's been way too long since i had ever felt the carefree feeling. Too damn used to worrying about things. Although my mind know that worrying wouldn't help anything, but somehow just can't help it. Unless i find something to occupy my mind with, like reading or even work.
I am tired.
Maybe i should take a break from trying to figure out life?