Forgotten...

It's tat time of the year again...yearly without fail...There's always 'someone' who will remember this day...but for this year, no one actually remembered...Guess i shldn't have really expected anyone to put in the effort or whatsoever...After the music is over, the loneliness really hits me big time...Time for me to grow up ya? Got this sudden urge to want to have my way in everything, no reason why, but it will be the last time that i will have this kind of thought though...Having my way, always means that ppl have to give in to me...somehow or rather...Most of them unwilling, and it's rather no point having ppl giving in unwillingly....

Thank you fren...for sms-in me out on xmas eve and xmas itself...It was definitely fun...Was juz kidding when u came late...i never did mind about the time...=) Juz hate to see ur mood being spoilt by other ppl...Till now i still dunno what actually spoilt ur mood...If there's anything to be done, to make u happy again...Kindly let me know...As long as it's within my resources, i will gladly do it...=)

Juz wanted to blog an entry about this, after today...guess i will be another me, one more independent of others...it's long past the time that i grow up, but it's time that i moved on...Growing up, taking on responsibility...No more procastination...No more lying to myself...It's long past the time where i shld have started to plan for the so-called 'future'...It's goin to be darn freakin bleak for all i can predict see...Once my finance stablized ,if it evers, 'time' is definitely goin to be a premium for me...

I promise myself...
-> always give my all in everything i do...no matter whether it is appreciated or not...
-> always give my all in relationships, no matter what kind, no matter whether i will be 'shortchanged' or not...
-> never ever lose my temper again...as those who will make me lose my temper is those that i care about...those otherwise, wouldn't ever make me lose my temper anyway...
-> never say 'bo bianz' to myself, when we do make our choices...for good or for ill...=)
-> always to go the extra mile for my frens...no matter how much rejection that i will get from them...They are worth more than they will ever realise...
-> change gradually but surely...bad habits are not TAT hard to change...when things need to be done, get my butt off and start doin...there are no room anymore for "not feeling up to it"...
-> live in the moment, instead of living in the past or the future...the Past is already the past...And the future is not mine to predict anyway...Rem...I aint no fortune teller...
-> accept my 'promotion' gracefully...It's not 'fun' having to take care of others...but someone will have to shoulder the responsibility...Taking it, is better than pushing it to other ppl...
-> count my blessing as and when i can...there ARE times where i will lose myself...and take things for granted...Never again shall i do this to another person again...
-> try to get more empathy for others...Be there for them always...No matter whether they does appreciate it or not...Never again shall i expect ppl to reciprocate...
-> be myself...I definitely have some attitude...Captial A...Running lights or whatsoever...i onli live once anyway...
-> cut down on my sarcasm, it's not meant to be anyway...i shld have grown out of it long ago...
-> remember...s is the onli character in the alphabet that's a mile long...

to be continued...it's already goin to be a freaking 5am...