The weekend for me, just zoomed past just like that. Having being working 1/2 day on the sat morning, and feeling the accumulative tiredness of the whole week. It's like, i totally crashed after reaching home. After working for 1/2 day, it's the first time in the longest time ever, that i felt SO tired. It might be just physical, and even emotional altogether. Did a dumb thing as in, keeping things from my dear. I knew that she's having a lot of problems, esp in the opening of the 2nd shop, yet i am unable to help in solving them. So i thought that the best thing that i can do, is to spare her the bad news regarding my work. But having done that, i was rather preoccupied with the things that are happening, rather than being able to be there for her. And if that's not the worst, i even gave my dear those half-assed answers. =x It's a definitely a bad move, as i later realised that it's definitely wrong to do that. In a relationship, good and bad things are meant to be shared, resulting in happiness doubled and sorrows halfed. By being there for each other, thus we are able to support and encourage each other. I was wrong to think that by not telling her, it's not going to be another burden on her. We ended our chat on fri nite wif heavy hearts, wif me being in a lost as in what shld i have done to remedy the situation.
Being in a dilemma as to call her or not, din help things much. Esp when she gotta wake up early, for she's working sat. Torn between wanting to clear up things, and not wanting to disturb her from her sleep. As she's being in rather poor health recently, i decided to call her the next day, didn't in my wildest dreams imagined that i myself wouldn't get enough sleep. And slept thru the whole of sat afternoon, waking up at her fone call. i shld have cleared up things at the very first beginning, rather than letting it drag for the next day. Knowing what she would do is let her imagination run wild, and lose sleep over it. Mistakes after mistakes that i had commited, again and again. I am juz a kultz in relationships, something that i have no head and tail of. Stuff that i can onli try to learn on the spot, when things happen. There's juz too much to learn, having skipped all the lessons regarding human relations previously.