I realised that my dear knows alot about me, much more than i could ever give her credit for. Din really have this realisation that she have such a good memory, that she's able to put all the pieces that i told her before all that, into a whole picture. In comparison, i can't say that i do know her THAT well, i do try despite of my rather poor memory. But part of the joy is in learning about the other person, i guess. I can't expect to know my dear that well, reason given is that guys are not meant to understand gals. They are a world of their own. But all those that i could, i would definitely try my best. Pray hard that my dear would understand though, i believe she would, that's for sure.=)
One thing that i have been considering for today, is to visit her there. Hoping that between the next change in my job, i would definitely try to negotiate for at least 2-3 weeks holiday before devoting myself to a new workplace. It's always on my mind to know the place where she's at, how does the place look like. To 'see' what she sees, so that i can imagine how it's like, when she tell me of what she's seeing. Before she came into my life, i din really thot of having any holiday(s). As holidays seems like more of a dream, more of the impossible kind. She brought a rather big change in my life. As nowadays, i would think of her, more than usual. Smiling comes more easily to me, esp when i thot of her.
Knowing she's currently busy with her work, i think it's the best that i wait for some time(to save up for the airfare all tat?) As currently my intention is more to get a change of job, most probably after my 13th month bonus. Might take some time to look for another one, but i believe it's still manageable. The problem is only that, what should i go for. It's a rather big world out there, having so many kind of jobs out there. Things that i am required to learn, is so much. I am really going to be filter them by the amount of time required to spend there, or is there another alternative? Most probably there is another way out there, which is 'totally' out of my comfort zone. Something that i gotta seriously consider.
Hope that my dear don't worry about me after she read this...=X I promised her that i wouldn't keep anything for her. So might as well simply put it up.=)